Level of Maturity

I never had a normal childhood. I used to complain about that, I used to have hang ups about not having an ideal life. I used to not like myself too much when I think back and ponder about my life. I used to be dissatisfied.

Yes, my life was not a big melodrama, but it had a lot of dramatic episodes. I was a generally happy person, but I was always looking for something else. I loved myself too much, but I never really liked myself. I always convinced myself I was beautiful, but I never believe people when they say so. I have always known I was the smart type. I'd never be the prom queen or the campus crush. I was just the popular smart girl that people knew, but never really got to know.

I knew I was already an adult when my perspectives changed. There is not exact date or time when that happened. One day, I just woke up and realized that I loved my life. I would never trade it for anyone else's. I don't have everything I want, but whatever things I don't have, I still have the chance to achieve them. I knew I had matured when I already knew how to see the bigger picture. I am still not satisfied, but that does not mean things will never be better.

I never had a normal childhood, but I am not complaining at all. Not anymore. In fact, I am thankful my life was what it was. I would never be what, where, and who I am today if my life was otherwise. I am an adult now, and it's about time I start owning up to it.